In exactly 17 hours more will be my ENT exam.

And I feel blank. Things that I have studied twice, I cannot remember. Why ah?

My gawd… how am I suppose to pass my exam tomolo? >_<

Feel very sien. I wish that I have an easier way out.

And so, my hands itch if I don’t open my blog’s dashboard.
I guess, I’m addicted to blogging already or it has been a daily routine for me to blog.

I feel very very tired now. Not enough sleep, still hutang 2 weeks of missed classes, another 2 final exams to sit, and 27 more days going home. I think I gonna fall into coma soon. Get me some normal saline and glucose infusion. Practically I just sit here all day long hugging my books. The fridge is empty because I got no time to go out to do groceries shopping. I only got Milo as my studying partner and it’s gonna finish di. I wonder if it will last me till I finish all exams.

Aaaaaahhhhh beh tahan liao~
I want to fast fast finish this ENT exam this wednesday, then ophthalmology paper then finish all my extra classes and go home. Yo, people who promise to belanja me makan, better don’t forget your promises! tee-hee, I’m working hard to go back for the free meals!

Hey, I heard that people who are sick with a medical report to prove your illness, most airline company will upgrade you to Business class from economic class for free. It is true? I wonder if I can request for it. Previous flight back to Russia is really tiring for me. I almost fainted. Maybe I should go seduce some flight attendant and ask him to change my seat. *wicked smile

Winter has truly begin. It had been snowing for whole day yesterday. Today, the sky is cloudless, the sun is shining brightly but don’t be deceived by the beautiful appearance, it’s actually very very cold when you see this. Hahaha, when it snows, I feel so damn excited. I run up to my room, take my D40 and I stand under the snow outside. I waited there for the beautiful snowflakes to fall on my winter coat. I promise I will snap the picture of snowflake for Belle.

This is it. The shape is just like the one we always see hanging on Christmas tree.

It’s a bit blur because it’s kinda windy. The snowflakes fell quickly and melt away very quickly. The next time it snows again, I will try to capture a clearer picture of it. Because usually once a snowflake fell on my jacket, it will stay there for few minutes before it melted. Waah, Nikon D40 is so power ler. I think it is the best gift I ever gotten in my life. Over the years, I have tried with other digital camera but I couldn’t capture a clear proper picture of snowflakes.

The beautiful things that I see now, the beautiful things that I enjoy, I wish I could share with other people. I want to tell my brother that this is how snowflake really looks like. So shiny, so minute and yet very beautiful.

Do you know? I think being able to walk under the snow with someone you love is very romantic. Being able to watch the snow falling slowly, being able to share this beautiful moment together. I wonder my darling over there in UK, would he love to watch the snow with me since UK doesn’t have snow. Some guys think it’s a stupid thing to do but I just think that these guys are not romantic.

Next wednesday got ENT (ear, nose and throat) final exam.
And now my previous ulcer did not heal and gets bigger. And in addition to it, another baby ulcer appear next to the previous one. “Koi wui” lor…. so painful~~~ chewing is painful. brush teeth also painful!

EEeeeekkkkk~ 40 more days going home!!!
*stress *stressssssss….. still got 2 more final exams to finish.
Suddenly got 3 pimples pop up on my face liao.
Appetite also increase excessively… >< I think I'm gonna be very very fat when I reach KL.

Aih~ aih~ And still haven't shop for souvenirs. Hmmm... who should I buy for?

*Yawn... okla it's 2.30am here. Ehehehe I think I better go sleep before I started to hallucinate.

I wonder how is pookyma doing with his STPM? Our legendary tall tall hensem guy with curly hair ahahah.

Aza aza fighting! Ganbatte kudasai!

Dear blog,
I feel very tired today somehow. Once I fall asleep, I refuse to wake up. I hate people who keeps knocking on the door knowing dat if nobody answer means we’re sleeping la! And with each knocking sound, I feel as if my brain is displaced from its position. That’s how irritating it is.
And I have an ulcer in my mouth.
And my mouth feels very dry because I don’t have the normal amount of saliva as it should be. And I almost choke myself while eating fried beehun yesterday because there is no saliva to facilitates the food entering my esophagus. As a result I eat 2 times slower than other people and I eat 3 times lesser than other people because my gastrointestinal tract will upset if I eat more.

I have another 5 more weeks here. 2 more final exams to sit. I wish that time could pass faster. I want to go home. There are plenty of questions in my head that I want to ask Dr.Foo. And the right side of my face is still swollen. Each time I take picture, I try not to cover my right face with my hair. Hair finally grow from the bald site. I could feel those soft little hair with my fingertips. It feels like a teddy bear’s fur. 2 weeks before this, I feel very itchy from this site because the hair is budding out.

I miss home so much.
There are only 2 places in this world that I feel safe. First is my house, second is to be in Ken’s arm. I had a bad dream during my afternoon nap just now. I dreamt that I never get to see Ken this coming winter. I feel very upset. When I woke up, I knew that I want to go to him as soon as I finished all my exams and classes here. Dear darling, I miss you so much. I wish you were here by my side. I miss the time that I spent in the hospital very much because Ken will be there by my side everyday.

I am so broke. Previously I had spent so much on my health and everything become more expensive here. How I wish at this time, I could win a lottery or something like that. Everyone have financial crisis now. Though I wanted to help out some other people very much but I couldn’t because I need to save the money for myself. =_= I feel really guilty for not being able to help. Ish, sometimes I feel so envious of the rich. When everyone else is starving, the rich still can shop for Gucci handbag, buy new clothes, dine in expensive restaurant, hi-tea in 6 stars hotel. If one day I would be rich, I will use it for charity, to help other needy ones.

And uuurrrrggghhh… the internet server is making me mad. It goes up and down as it likes. And made me missed the photohunt yesterday and now I still having problem with uploading photos to my blog. Haih… I paid rm200 for 500MB only summore. This month, if you don’t see my batang hidung in ur blog, I’m so sorry…. I need to save up the internet bytes until end of next month till I go back to malaysia.

I feel very moody for an unknown reason.
Even the sky is cold and dark and gloomy.
I got no mood to study. Read how many hundred times also couldn’t remember anything.

Menses kua. So susah to become woman. Why did God made female species so emo leh? That sometimes I also dun understand what I want myself. I think I gonna continue being like this for a week. Sigh… wanna go home la. 57 more days going home but still haven’t finish any of my exam yet. Sienz. I wonder if I took another course instead of medic, what will my life be?