“Daddy, when I grow up, I will bring you and mummy travel around the world on first class flight.”
This is what a naive child will always tell their daddy and mummy. When I was a little girl, I always wanted to grow up faster because I wanted to earn money to give my parents a comfortable life. I don’t want to see them working so hard. But as I step forward closer to my dreams, the distance from my parents become further away.
I notice how my parents changed throughout the years. Everytime I go home, I noticed how the white hair are replacing the black ones on my dad’s head. I also noticed there are more and more freckles on my mum’s skin. My heart aches. My parents are growing older, became weaker each year and they no longer could piggyride me to my bed.
You know ever since I step into university, I often heard about news of somebody mum or dad passed away. I feel very sad and at the same time, I feel scared. I worry that one day my parents might leave me suddenly before I manage to fulfill what I promised them. I want my parents to witness my beautiful wedding, I want my parents to play with my children.
We often see how other people living happily out there but in reality, life is not that perfect even though it seems so. Accidents happen and sometimes we might receive unexpected news. One of my close friend’s dad passed away last thursday. It was a shocking news for all of us. I cried in the bathroom when I heard the news. During recent 2 years, many have lost their mum or dad due to cancer and heart failure. Because there were so many, I feel worried about my parents. One of the reason why I’m in medic school is to protect my family. I want them to be healthy so that they can live longer. Perhaps 6 years in medic school is taking too long. Some parents couldn’t wait until this day.
Eddy must be very heart broken now. That kind of feeling of not being able to see or hear him or hug him anymore is a horrible feeling. If there is something that I could ask for, I wish that time can stop for a while. I like everything now, I like it when I could see, touch and feel my family and friends.
This summer I should go take a family photo. Maybe I should take more photos of everyone else. Because I want to remember. Remember how everyone look like in case one day I won’t be able to see them again. Do you have a family potrait? Go get one soon. Because it’s not easy to gather whole family together when everyone is busy working and studying and the photo is what still keeping us together. That’s why I like taking pictures.
I have been spending very little time with people that I am closed to lately. I don’t remember when was the last time of me having a nice chat with Yvonne, Fooie, April and Christina. 5 exams to finish within 2 months, I want to study well and be your good doctor and I want to be there to support Ruth throughout her treatment. Bear with me people. I’ll be home soon, in a nick of time.