I had a bad dream last night. I woke up feeling uneasy about this. Or maybe I was just too tired.
I dream that my cancer has recurred.
I saw myself woke up, and when I looked up in the mirror, I saw bulging on my right side, the exact same place where the tumour was and all the lymph nodes on my neck were enlarged and painful.
I was frightened and woke up from my sleep at 4am. It was very real, it feels real and I woke up with a jaw pain, right over the site where the tumour was removed.
Is this a bad sign? I started to feel worried and I feel stressed. I’m so stress that I’m gonna explode soon.
Bcos I’m still in pain now. I can’t move my jaws fully. And I don’t know how this pain occurs suddenly.
After 2 long years, I try to hide, I try to be strong. But sometimes, when similar signs appear, I started to lose control and think if the cancer relapse. I might look happy and healthy, that’s because I don’t want anyone to sympathize me but it doesn’t mean that I’m 100% ok.
I’m a cancer patient, though I never think about it too much, dying will always be something that all cancer patient worry about. I’m just not ready to die yet.
*hugs* hope this hug will make you feel better
Will pray for your health
*hugs* Yeap same like Daniel.
No worry dearie, Dreams are always opposite with reality so If you dream your sick return It means It won’t return.
May healing angel always be by your side.
Remember stay happy Is a important antidote to fight off cancer.
my earlier hugs couldn’t get through.
let me send again. *BIG HUG* hope your jaw is feeling better today. and ya, still happy. important to, though not always easy.
*typo. still = stay*
I was reminded of you when I was attached to the Maxillofacial team during my 6-week firm. In the clinic, everyone either had salivary gland tumour or tumour of the oral cavity. Apparently, follow-up here is quite rigid.. they have it for 10 years after resection of the tumour. Do you still do your regular checkup?
how are you, sweetheart? feeling better already?
Daniel: Thanks Daniel. Thanks for the sms too. I’m too busy to reply you. So tired ah!
Fiona: thanks. *Sob sob.
tuti: Aaaaahhh I need a BIG BIG HUG from you. *digs into misti’s arms. Now my feet hurts.
lynnx01: yes I do, every 6 months I go to my oncologist.
*BIG BIG HUG*
*massage your feet*
sayangz my little precious polaris. take care k? i love you.