I can finally stop going back to Russia. Away from depression and psychos.
For the past 2 years, I had been trying very hard to fit in but I can’t. I failed miserably. Trying to act and pretend to be like someone I don’t know was very hard. In the end I became so confused and lost. I hated myself. Everyone close to me kept asking me why was I so different when I went back to Kursk to study? I couldn’t give them an answer. All I know was, I wasn’t happy at all; I was depressed most of the time. To certain people who were seems so close to me, I hated them sometimes. They got so close to me because they all wanted something from me. After they got it, they ignored me. Hypocrite. That’s how everyone lives in university huh?
People said you will never find true friends apart from your secondary school friends.
It’s over now. I don’t have to go back there and suffer from psychological torture anymore. The moment I board on the flight from Moscow, I feel relieved. Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery and today is a gift. What has passed let it passed. I’m back as myself, the real me and there are a lot happier things ahead to catch up.
secondary school friends. Never forget some of your blogger friends.
Watch movie~~~
Yea. =D Sometimes even bloggers and online RPG friends are nicer! Hehe. Without u ppl, I think I long gone to tanjung rambutan liao.
while i was never close to most of my uni classmates, i did meet a few very close friends that made my uni days a blast.
Haha don’t go Tanjung Rambutan la so far! How to yum cha leh… Stay back here KL ler =)
simon: bad hor….. though some appear to be nice in front of u, behind ur back… god knows what they do.
fiona: lol. come come yumcha.
finally you can update your blog on your own. i still owe u your photoblog. will try to get it up soon ya. don’t chase me
welcome back…..to the bolehland..