Sensitive

Going through that disease that is near to death made me more sensitive and alert to everything related to it. Before this, I never notice it, never knew it’s presence and never understood it’s influence. But now I saw, I felt the pain, I shared that anxious feeling. Lately, cancer haunt many people in my life. Wherever I go, the word cancer is inevitable, it follows me or perhapsit has always been there but I never notice it.

My roomate have sudden enlargement of thyroid gland, the teacher recommend her to visit the department of oncology for diagnostic evaluation. Probably she have to undergo surgery to remove the thyroid gland. My friend had hyperplasia of clavicle lymph nodes, tomorrow my teacher will do a biopsy for him. Today we study about lymphoma, cancer of lymphoid tissue which makes him more anxious about his diagnosis and he’s worried sick that he’ll never make it to 30 years old.

Is this something got to do with the Chernobyl radiation? Or is it something got to do with bad FengShui? Or is it because we all are in Russia? Cancer suddenly became a common issue among us. I didn’t see my patient yesterday and today. I think she passed away. She had blastoma of the stomach stage 3. Our teacher said her prognosis is bad, she might not survive for long. But few days ago when I visited her, she was a cheerful lady, very positive with her life and then the next day she is gone.

Life.
One moment it is in your hand. Another moment it is gone.

Is there anything that you promise someone but haven’t done? Like promise to cook a nice dinner for mum, promise a friend we’ll go to the beach together, promise your brother that you would play with him.

Don’t delay what you promise them, for you never know that if you’ll never have that chance to fulfill that promise anymore.