…. 不管留下了多少眼泪
坚持下去的动力还在
Nothing I Will Be Afraid

- adapted from Fly Away lyrics, F.I.R

Nota bene!: I’m not in a good mood for chatting these days. Aside from bloggers and friends whom I’m close to, I do not wish to speak to anyone else. I’m not lan si or watever but I really not in a good mood now. I have studies to catch up and I have exams to rush before going home on the 29th Dec (you think medical students are very free wan is it?) and I’m also currently involved in a super complicated long distance relationship ever seen on earth. I also dunno for whatever reason so many people adding me on msn suddenly claiming to be a fan of YuinYin.com when they don’t even read my blog (bcos they don’t even know what cancer I had and didn’t believe I’m a cancer survivor). Well, if I didn’t survive cancer, then I wouldn’t be here blogging right? Where do you see blog written by a dead person? UUUrrrrggghhh… stop stalking me or else I’ll start cursing everyone off and the consequences will be really bad….

Current mood: very unpredictable like weather, very irritable
General condition: I have yet started to study for my ENT and paediatric practical exam. So you think I stress or not?

Kursk is a really really boring big kampung with a lot of empty lands which used to be battlefields and then till today still a lot of it left undeveloped. Only a small piece of land in the middle which suppose to be a city or town is much more developed with universities, colleges, hospitals blah blah blah. And we don’t have any entertaiment here. So when we are bored, down, happy, guilty… we can only eat. EAT, eat, eat. I must admit that the Italian food from the little italian cafe down the road from our hostel can beat La Risata and Italiannese. Well, every place got something good and bad right? =) Luckily in this miserable place, we still have good italian food.

It’s Teo’s birthday so we went there for lunch. And since I came back, I went there few times alone. It’s quiet there, I could concentrate more in studying ENT without being distracted by my bed and my blog. Lol. And see those 3 juniors there…. they are fricking rich bcos I can see the waitress keep sending dishes to them. They ordered salmon steak, beef steak, pasta, pizza… errh almost everything from salad to appetizer to main course?

Well, that’s not the point. It’s saturday. So we should once in a while relax, enjoy ourselves, hang out with friends and catch up with everybody. It’s a birthday celebration anyway. ehehe.

Chicken Fetucinni (not sure how to spell, no time to look in dictionary yet), the cheapest pasta and a value for money. =D Order this plate, is full enough for your tummy, can last till supper time also no need to eat. Nah, this is baru the real fetucinni ma, thick thick fat fat wan… those fetucinni in italiannese so small like wantan mee wan… where got syiok to eat.

Oh this is the black dunno dunno wat. ahaha sorry my russian is bad. I couldn’t translate the name of this pasta. And they say the noodle is dyed by squid ink. Squid ink???? can eat wan meh? won’t die meh? But wth… this pasta is fantastic!~ Eat liao only think about the consequences la hor….

This is telyatina chicken pasta. The color looks weird so I haven’t try it myself but seems like a lot of my friends like to order this lately. Maybe i shall try it myself the next time.

Aaahhh… the classical salmon pasta. They used to served this with 3 huge salmon fillet but then now due to inflation, they reduced the amount of salmon and replaced it wih a lot of minute prawns instead. Damn… I regretted not eating enough of this pasta last semester while it still contained a lot of salmon!

Wah… I love this too. Seafood pasta. Bcos… bcos hor the fetucinni is super fat. I just love the way it feels when it’s in the mouth. But now for temporarily mum dun let me take seafood. So I can only watch them eat. ehehe.

hmmm…. lastly, the moment everyone waiting for…. DESERT time!!!! Tiramisu with a cute decoration with missing spoon and fork there. Very creative. No wonder it took so long for the desert to arrive. This tiramisu is way much better than the one in La Risata. Thumbs up!

Apple strudels, prepared in the russian way I think. Every russian restaurant I went here make the apple strudels like this or probably I haven’t seen how it was served in other countries yet. Once again due to inflation… look the ice-cream also seems so minute.

Jeng, jeng, jeng… everyone feels very excited waiting for this desert. Don’t know what it is called but surely it’s a burning pear! Look! The blue flame! Oh I think they pour vokda on it then light it up with lighter. =D I wonder what will happen if I stuck 2 fingers there.

Oh oh…. it’s Teo’s birthday. I almost forgotten. Here is the birthday boy with his pear ahaha. There’s some dark choloate with sour cream or some sort of thing like that in there, to be eaten with the pear of course. Colley feels very excited with the pear as well that she got some silly idea of burning the pear in her room. Let’s hope that she doesn’t burn down the hostel while burning the pear. Lol. =P

Happy 22nd birthday, Teo!
*Reuben Koh: have you wish him yet?

You see…. I have been very very lazy hor these days. I spend all my time in sleeping and studying only. No matter how much I sleep, I will still feel very tired and exhausted. And these 2 days I feel pain at the occipital region and my post-surgical wound hurts. Maybe because of the cold weather, my skin becomes dry and it stretches the wound so it hurts me a lot.

And probably because I stress myself too much that’s why I feel headache. And at the same time, I am currently reading about ENT. Each time I found a similar symptom I’m having, I would suspect that I might go deaf or something. But what I’m afraid the most is, what if the cancerous cells did not die and it metastasize to a new region?

I’m still under a probation period. Not until the next MRI scan to confirm my status, I am still a cancer patient. Diet, environmental factor, rest is essential to me that…. I slept throughout my paediatric class =P. I’m so so tired and my darling *K ran away. To say that I don’t feel hurt or sad, I’m just lying. It began on the 18th, and end on the 18th. Oh how I hate the number 18! So fairy tales never exist. Not at all.

Uuurrrggghhhhhh…. today is saturday but I still have to go for class. And the paeds teacher is getting more and more naggy everyday or maybe I was just too tired to stay focus in her class. Sometimes Russian can be very annoying if they try to pretend that they are very hardworking.

Did you count how many fingers you have on your hand today?

Did you check how many strands of hair on your head today? It is still full in volume and thick like yesterday?

Did you check how many smses in your mobile phone today?

As time passed, as people grow up and indulge in various luxury and happiness, people tend to forget every little thing in life. These every little thing which is so important for us but we often overlook them.

I’m so glad I could smile today.
I’m so glad my 10 little fingers still typing.
I’m so glad that I’m still blowing my hair with hair dryer now..
I’m so glad to hear you voice over the phone because it shows that you are still alive and kicking.

If we know how to appreciate every little thing in life, then we won’t be asking for so much. The smile on your face, the long beautiful hair you got, friends that never forsake you, these are the little things in life which make our life richer and beautiful.