Few days back, a friend told me my best buddy likes me. I know him for years and he did not once mentioned anything about his feelings for me. It is because of *K appearance in my life that stirs up his real feelings for me.
Why didn’t he tell me all these years he had with me? Maybe I’ll give him a chance because we both share the same dream. Join NGO to help children in poorer country. He is a very nice guy, very gentleman and good looking as well. Only lack of confidence I think.
My friend told me because he feels inferior, he don’t dare to approach me. An engineer and a doctor, there’s a social gap between us. But, I just wanted to protect lives… never thought of intimidating anyone with my status. Why is it they never give me a chance or give it a try?
Maybe in relationship, it’s not only just about the feelings for each other. The timing, fate, courage, confidence, commitment, etc. *K just happened to be there when I needed somebody, he have the courage to step into my life though he know I was having cancer. The other 2 fella were by my side all along, but they didn’t have the courage to tell me they love me.
I’m not sure what do people think of me. Someone noble? scary? overconfident? high class?
But I am just a ordinary simple girl who only wanted to help people. I know *K mentioned before that I was a completely different person when I’m in the hospital. When I’m outside, I’m a playful, childish little girl. When I’m in the hospital, I was serious, proud, confident, know a lot of things in medic field that others never understood. Isn’t it a good thing if I take my profession seriously? People lives in my hand, of course I don’t want to play with people lives. If guys feel intimidated by this, then I have nothing to say.
I believe only the person who truly loves you would give in their best to catch hold of you. If social status does matter so much, then all the female doctors don’t have to get married lor.
How about you? How far will you go for the girl you love? I know sometimes social status does matter a lot, but not too big gap right? Sometimes it makes me feel so dumb. Because I went all the way chasing my dreams and ambition, I end up making all the guys runaway from me. People who have dreams and ambition cannot be loved wan meh?
Woot an enginner, just like me! He studying what engineering one?
blame our huge ego
Yung, i think he’s a civil engineer. lately he very stress with his works la. temper also quite bad di.
sewjin, ego so big for wat oh. why engineers can have a doctor sister, send their kids to medic school but not marry a doctor?
yuin yin,
sometimes certain things are left best unsaid – not to ruin a friendship, or perhaps to love you from your side and by your side. sometimes love is unfathomable, that’s the beauty.
learn to love ppl, not just your boyfriend/husband.
Thanks for your thoughts, i was refer to your blog by my friend in Kuching and i lives in Singapore and i don’t know u at all before that but has been reading your blog. your blog: Will you tell her that you love her? really speaks to me… and i know i will find courage to tell the girl that i love her.. thank you for this showing me the courage
Is like that 1, civil engineers more bad tempered, cos they always go under the sun.
Just joking..
tomatoinc, if you don’t tell her, how would she know. Maybe she too have feelings for him and waited for him to say it to her. I do have feelings for him, but now I can’t turn back to return his feelings for me bcos I’m commited with another person now. I do love everyone. The love issue here is about the person that will be your lifelong partner till death do us apart, do u understand? If you never try, how would you know if you both can be together tiill marriage and get old together?
CS, thanks for dropping by. I wish for your success in confessing to her! =)
yung, ehehe somehow he got a job work in office de. probably he kinda “mang jang” a bit bcos i sudah ada bf.
I guess some guys don’t want to risk the present friendship. If tak jadi, sometimes friends also can be lost.
one senior once told me that: female doctors’ price tag will drop with time.
i guess he is referring to the chance to meet someone in life.
some guys tend to intimidate by their partners’ profession.
they may feel inferior compared to their partner.
there is another possiblity why guys from other field dont approach medicgirls:
one of my coursemate’s mum wants her son-in-law must be a doctor and not others!
oh my god!
lynnx01, but i hinted to him somehow… and why did he feel so sad about it now
medicboyz, yealor like wat u say… nobody wants to marry doctor lar (but not parents problem lol)! Ur wife is lucky dat she’s married to u now =D
p/s: i dun wan to marry someone with the same profession bcos…. bcos… life will be very bored then.
hahahaha..yuinyin…why does that sound so familiar? is that who i think it is? or is that someone new ??? how many people mau jatuh cinta dengan mu?
darrell, nope not the one u think he is. =P U know how picky I am in guys wan ma. akaka.
I guess guys have very different frequencies. Sometimes we mati mati hint yet they also blur case. Sometimes they hint us we don’t even see it. LOLs!
Yeah i totally agred in you saying “if you don’t tell her, how would she know. Maybe she too have feelings for him and waited for him to say it to her” caused i felt no point saying you love her, if you have no gut saying you love her! Nowadays i even saw some girl brave enough to confess their feeling to the guy they love!! Hehe but i can’t do it le