Today I did some reading on ENT because I’m feeling bored and I have 5 exams to catch up this semester.
I found something disturbing.
………Tumors of salivary gland origin have a better short term prognosis, but many of these patients die with recurrent tumors many years later……………
No wonder everyone in kursk, they were so worried about me. Bcos, the line above was found in our little ENT book written by professor Konoplya, page 160, line 4-6.
Thinking about it, I will have few more years left to live, I wonder if it’s enough for me to complete things that I wish to do. It is possible for me to be married and have children? I always wanted a daugther of my own but in case I’ll die young, then who will take care of my kids? So the not-so-selfish thought should be I shouldn’t get married and bring life to any kids.
But then again… I refuse to give up my life and a chance to be loved and be happy….
so I do more further reading in different textbooks and I find…..
See…. life is not that hopeless afterall and besides I had the whole deep lobe of parotid gland which the tumor contained in removed totally. And according to oxford oncology handbook, with wide surgical removal, this type of tumor will be cured.
Our life is in our hand. How long you want to live and how happy you want it to be depends on your will. How determined are you to continue to live? I will never let the other 8% of chances of death to take my life away. Because I know I was here for a reason. Yvonne once told me that I was made for the weak. I know I am here to protect the children, to protect people who needs comfort.
Well, enough of this sappy mood. I’m going out shopping for my backpack. Tata~
Someone once thought the same thing like you about bringing kids into this world. However, she realized one thing when she saw the loved ones around her especially her husband. If she was gone, her husband would be alone. So she decided to have a kid, to leave a part of her with him.
Eh, enough of this sappy mood lah, hor? Shopping is always a good cure for sappy moods.
The will to live play a heavy role in this! Aiyah just go shopping lah. Don’t want to have this moody thought! BTW is this why u want me to post up ‘hor ny’ post to cheer u up or made u sexited?? Have a nice weekend!
What you always think about is what you will get. Just think about how happy you are and what are the things you really want to do in life and they shall be achieved easily.
P/S: Nice new theme. How I know that you’ve changed? I’ve been visiting your blog since you visited mine…
Mind to exchange links?
my dear.. with the strength within you.. you will go thru everything!
and dont forget we are all around you
be optimistic..yes its in yr hand.
don be selfish..u dont know who is waiting to be yr child in the future..so even if life is short..
TRY it.. so more lil yy will kept living around us. =}
Never give up. You never know what will happen in the future. I remember I read someone blog last 2 days ago where she mentioned that her dad had cancer since she is in her teenage year..and she mentioned that the doctor once said, her father should’nt be around until last year and guess what? her dad is still here with all of us. There is something we called as miracle.
There is no point of thinking of things that we do not know when will happen, so just keep on walking! Still a very long way for you dear!
Give up = lose
“We never know when is the end”
This is my quote when I do my design. I never think of give up. I only think of is it other better way?
My sis was in accident last year and and I was in Uni that time. Count from the day lest time I met her. I think…is about3 years ago. 3 years..I miss her voice so much. She cant talk now…weak…What to do? cry?Can change the result?nope…Not going to talk much here.. Many will support you when you down but the only person will really help is yourself.
1 thing, I like the song soooOOo much. It relax my mind
thanks!
Thank you everyone… dunno wat else to say. I really hope I can have a happy ending.
lukxiufung: sure can link.
linked. Thanks
ahh! YY don’t think so much, live your life till the fullest!
never give up
do not worry about things which have not happened yet… statistics is one thing… faith is another.
gee… i sound like a pastor now.