The peak of pain
I feel very suffering right now. The pain and everything worsen. My tongue, not only just the side, now the whole tongue feels painful. I think probably no one will experience this before, I found blisters at the tip of my tongue! It’s so difficult to move my tongue because it is very very painful. It will gonna take few days for the blister to go away.
This is my tongue. See, it looks very screwed up.
For the first time, tears are rolling down my cheek uncontrollably even though I’m not crying. The pain is unbearable. There are some blood and greenish phelgm in my saliva, I think my throat is very inflamed. The only thing I can do now is rinse my mouth with Biotene mouthwash every 30mins to ease my discomfort and pain… and waiting for time to pass away quickly. I can’t wait to get better soon.
In addition to phobia to eating, I now have phobia to sleeping. I feel very very tired but I feel very scared to fall asleep. Because everytime when I wake up, the condition of my throat will get worse and pain will increase. At least when I’m awake, i constantly drink water and moisten my throat. During sleep, I’m unable to do that and my throat will become very dry and painful. I’m seriously not sure what to do now. I feel hungry but I was unable to eat. For the past few days, I still can eat cooked oat meal. Now besides milk, I don’t know what else can I take.
I seriously hate the feeling right now. When I recover, I will make sure that I will never be this sick anymore. It is really unbearable. I wish everyone will treasure their health properly. Don’t get cancer. The process of overcoming it is really really terrible.
If I could become oncologist one day, I wish I could help other patient to ease their pain because I understand how unbearable it is.
Hi winston, thank you for dropping by.
Maybe u can try out “Bonjela”? It can be bought in pharmacies..I used to use that to soothe the pain of my mouth ulcer before. Its cooling effect is quite good =) Hope u’ll get well soon and do take more fruits( fruit juices if u cant swallow now ) cos it’ll help to get rid of d ulcer faster ^^ Take care n God bless you, YuinYin =)
-aLLYSa-
this is Misha’s mum. Just drop by to say hello and to let you know that you are a brave girl. Do take care ok?
I don’t know what can i said to comfort or ease your pain, i just can said i sincerely hope you’ll get well soon, and i’m admire your courages for keeping your faith and never give up. Be strong dear and god bless you.
My heart was so pain when I see the pic of your tongue, really we should take care of our health properly so we don’t fall into any kind of illness.
Tahan abit, soon everyting will be over! TAHAN!!!!
you know whats the best remedy for this? consume Baskin Robbins ice cream~~~ since got 31% off now hehe..
Hey YuinYin, I was just blog surfing when I stumbled upon your blog. And for the very FIRST time ever in reading ANYONE’s blogs, I actually feel touched in some magical way by your strength, sincerity, and selflessness.
I’ve not met another like you out there just yet (most other bloggers blog for fame, popularity, and selfish rantings & bitchings), here you are however wanting to earn blogging money to sponsor a child.
If there is anyone out there that should live a long and healthy life, it should be you.. You have my heartfelt prayers. Stay strong and stay true.
yuin yin i think reiko is right. go makan ice-cream. it does help a lot. =) I’m sorry you didnt eat nice food before this, but had to eat organic food.
Allysa: thanks for your suggestion but Bonjela won’t work for us. We need special toothpaste,mouthwash and gel with enzymes.
Misha’s mum: thank you.
Fiona: thank you dear
Yung: aaawww… so sweet. thank you!
Reiko: no good, can’t taste anything la dear. I dun even remember how normal food taste like already.
FoOie: thank you
Yvonne: will eat when i get better =).definitely will eat!
i wonder if coconut water can help?
I’ve tried coconut drink, but it burns my tongue. Lol I’ve tried a lot of different juices, only honeydewmelon juice and barley can soothe me.
hi, get to know your blog through lilian chan’s blog.
admire your strength and determination. keep it up.
not sure if get to see dietitian during your hospital admission and the chemo/radiotherapy sessions.
however, since you are suffering from mouth ulcers/ blisters (probably side effect of your chemo?), maybe try to avoid citrus and tomatoes, coz they may exacerbate the condition.
i am not sure about the health care system in malaysia, as in, if they have this home nutrition program, supplying the nutritional products to the oncology patients/ those vulnerable group? not familiar with the range of products available back home, but i am pretty sure you can get “Ensure” from pharmacies or even ‘Giant’..it’s definitely better than just plain milk. if you get sick from the supplementary formulas, maybe can try to blend the food (blend with soup added in it to make it smooth and runny, easier for you to swallow).
anyway, this is just two cents from me.
p/s: i am working as a clinical dietitian in australia.
hope you get well soon. take care and keep up the good spirit
NO ONE can understand yr pain unless they are in the same situation..but yy stay strong it’l get over very very soon ok
blink or eyes more often may the time pass faster! muacks!
LOL, you ter-deleted my comment :p
Anyway, think positively and don’t worry too much. You will be able to hop over this obstacle in the path of life!