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I become weaker with each radiotherapy and chemotherapy. Today I try to eat “pan mee” to fill in my empty stomach, but I ended up vomiting out later. This is my first vomiting since the treatment started. I met Dinesh at ss19 just now eating “pan mee”. He said i look very “chan” (weary) already. Yea, i know. It’s the side effect from those therapies.

Yesterday evening, I suddenly “collapse”. I’m not sure how to explain this. At first i was feeling drowsy and then the next moment I just dropped on my bed and unable to wake up, unable to move my body no matter how I tried. Then i just let it be and sleep for a while. Very weird feeling, I was very weak, very tired. Probably I’m running out of energy because these few days I didn’t eat much. I wanted to eat but I just couldn’t withstand the pain and then stop eating. If I try to force myself to eat more, I’ll end up vomiting everything out.

It’s just so difficult. I feel hungry and tired and wanted to eat but I just couldn’t bear the pain. Tramadol hydrochloride not effective enough for me as painkiller. I think Dr.Foo have to give me morphine soon and also IV glucose since I couldn’t eat.

Right now the only one that can cheer me up, accompany me to sleep, stay with me…. is my teddy bear. Bear bear 辛苦你了。

I got this schmoozie schmoozie award from Yung.. Thanks pal =).

You’re eligible for this award is due to your natural ability to converse casually, especially in order to gain an advantage or make a social connection. You effortlessly weave your way in and out of the blogosphere, leaving friendly trails and smiles, happily making new friends along the way. You don’t limit your visits to only the rich and successful, but spend some time to say hello to new blogs as well. You are the ones who engage others in meaningful conversations, refusing to let it end at a mere hello - all the while fostering a sense of closeness and friendship. All in all, you’re a Good schmoozer!!!

Can I exchange it with cash?
It’s not exchangeable with cash and no trophy either! Congrats! you truly deserve it! And thanks to my dear friends! So wait no more, now it’s your turn to award 5 other bloggers with the Power of Schmooze Award! Let’s rock the blogosphere!!!

Now time to pass the award around to:
1) Kenneth khaw
2) Gerald
3) Allysa
4) Foon ling
5) Kok fye

Long time ago, we use pigeon to help us transfer messages, letters, etc. Then as time passed, people become smarter and invented telegraph. In the modern days, we use DHL and FedEx. Nowadays, we use blogging! You’ll never know what your blog can do for you. ^^

Hehehe, just 2 hours ago I posted about my current condition and complaints. And then I hear my door bell ringing.

First I got this….. mouthrinse that soothes inflamed and damaged oral tissues

Then I got a bouquet of roses…..

Then come 2 coconuts. You really caught me in suprise, teddybear!~ My pain suddenly go away =). Thank you for the gifts!

Few minutes later…. I wanted to sleep then Liyi called say she wanted to drop me something. Jeng jeng jeng….

This is a funny mangosteen I have never seen before in my life with specific “chiam-chiam” (sharp sharp) buntut.


Comparison between the normal mangosteen and this special mangosteen which she claim plucked from some hutan.


And there’s also such fruit as Hutan orange????

Hahaha… thanks for the fruits. =) I can now happily go nap for a while.

Pain Pain Pain pain Pain
Beginning of 3rd week of my radiotherapy and also the beginning of every cancer patient’s nightmare. SORE MOUTH, PAIN, ULCERS, BLISTERS, FUNGAL INFECTION and MORE PAIN.

My jaw hurts so do my mouth, my throat and my lips. My lips bleed yesterday. I was unable to chew and swallow for the past 2 days. I lost 600g of weight. Currently feel very hungry but unable to eat because it is too painful to chew and swallow. Uuuuuwwwaaaaa~ so suffering. So this is how other cancer patient felt. I can feel it now, I can understand the pain. Perhaps through this pain, will make me a better doctor in future.

I’m too indulge in the pain and sleeping now. So do feel free to drop by Edrei’s blog. He wrote a lot about cancer during the blogathon.

I like this sentence he wrote:
“Cancer isn’t an act of God sent to punish you for your sins.”

It’s a trial for you to make you grow stronger. What can’t kill you will only make you you stronger.

To all the cancer patients out there, please do not give up hope. Cancer is curable with a strong determination to live.

Aaahhh… have been a really sick day for me yesterday. I went to Dr. Foo and uuurrggghhh I have fungal infection of the oral cavity. She prescribed me nystatin 5ml per os, 4 times a day. Can’t really see any changes in the morning, my mucosa is a bit red and swollen but towards the night….. swt -_-”… white spots appear all over my oral cavity. Sooo scarrryyy laaaa~

I wish I have a better camera to take a pic of my mouth. Though it’s gross but then ahah… it’s good to remind myself one day dat Candida albicans came, invaded, colonised the mucosa of my oral cavity. =D I’ll make sure that in future, there’s no chance for them to invade my mucosa!

Uhhh, and because I was sick, I have to cancel our Melaka trip today. So sad~ I really want to take a walk outside KL somewhere. Anyone got a good suggestion? My mum refuse to let me go far far. I need to be in cooling place, less people, less pollution (smoking) because right now my immune system is weak, I’m very vulnerable to infection at the moment.

Yvonne left for LA luu today. She haven’t send me the pictures we took in La Risata on thursday nite. Somehow I’m a bit disappointed with the food there. Not as nice as the Italian cafe I went in Kursk. Haih so difficult to find a good Italian restaurant these days. Any recommendation?