Sometimes I feel tired with what I’m doing now to the point that I sometimes even lose faith in God. I’m not sure why I am here for. I used to be very confident, very determined with what I wanted to do. But once in a while, I feel confused because undeniable that I have a not so bright future. Fate of medical students studying in Russia, no one can tell us how. Being a successful specialist? A professor? What we saw in reality is just being a normal GP working with government hospital with a salary same like secondary school teacher. Sometimes I wonder why do I have to work so hard? 6 years of education leh, say short is not short. We wasted our youth, our time, our happiness, almost our everything. But in the end, is it worth it? No matter how hard we try, it’s worthless because we are in Russia. Even our government despises us.

Every winter, we walk out with fear. Fear of being killed by skinheads one day. I almost die in a fire in hostel on Deepavali night year 2005 but our stupid uni doesn’t care. Those guys that caused the fire, they are still there in Kursk. Life continues like normal for everyone, but no one consider what happened to the victims. We have stubborn, refuse to understand student situation kind of a group of vice-deans sitting happily in the air-cond room. Russians and their weird mentality… sometimes I think even dogs are better than them; at least dogs are more understanding and will always try to listen to what we wanna say. Our life in Russia is so harsh. I don’t feel like a student sometimes, I feel more like a fighter fighting for my life there. Those Russians they made us feel so depressed, so mad, so disappointed.

Everyone here does not understand why but everyone studying in kursk, have their own bitter story behind. The good students changed into some weirdos, fall sick or quit studying. The not so good students seem to be enjoying themselves a lot. Drinking and smoking recklessly without parental control. After all this is a place for you to get MD at the lowest price then make use of this MD to do something else.

Is there any better way for us to escape from this hell hole?