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Remember back in primary school, teacher like to ask what is your cita-cita? Since young, everyone have different ambition. From accountant to pilot, from pilot to teacher, from teacher to actress, from actress to fashion designer, from fashion designer to photographer. I am still stuck halfway here to get my MD. Though saving lives is a noble thing and I get everyone to admire me, but sometimes I keep thinking how will my life be if I’m on the other end of the road. Have you ever thought that, if one day you will be given a chance to change, which profession most likely you would choose or will you stay with the same profession?

Some friend say if he ever drops out from medical school, he wants to open a pet shop selling goldfish. Eh, then he will bcom “kam yu lou”.

Some people, plan open up a stall sell char kuey teow. Actually this is not a bad idea, at least hor you can get PR in UK easier than doctor leh. Nasi lemak, roti canai, chicken rice, kuih nyonya, Pao. Yummy~ Open sushi bar also not bad, can become lady boss, dress up in cute kimono.



What do i want to do? If given a chance, I would want to try out modelling for wedding gowns. People say a girl look most beautiful when she dressed in wedding gown. I want to know how I will look like. Maybe one day he will notice me.


Can somebody go tell 吳尊, yuin yin is secretly admiring him at one corner of the world? … hell i sounds like a stalker. Calling for Mr. Itik, where’s the email you suppose to help me get?

Hey guys,
lol I submitted my photo to samsung be like Beyonce contest for fun. Help me win the phone can? =D I’ll pinjam u play with it later ehehe. Remember CLICK for ME ONLY cos everytime u click on those picture hor, they will gain one point. Thank you ^^.
Here is the link, click on Gallery, then click on my Photo only… on the 1st page.
Samsung’s Be Like Beyonce contest

True friends can read my mind and would understand that i’m a bit emo lately. Yes indeed, I’m a bit upset. Though I might appear to be strong, tough and independent like what people think, but the stronger i looked, the more vulnerable I am. I am always trying my best to protect others and sometimes I do need protection too. When i have to face so many bad things in a row alone, I feel pressurized. I’ve learnt to protect others because I understand the need of being protected when you feel very down. But sometimes inevitably I feel hurt as well. I am a human with emotions; of course once in a while I will break down. Me too, sometimes need to seek for comfort and protection.

And I feel a bit bitter with the world these days. The world had definitely turned upside down. True love no longer exist, only lust. Today he can tell you he will give the world to you, love you forever. Tomorrow, you will find him having sex with a 17 yrs old girl. And yesterday promises becomes nothing. [Note: I'm not having anything against 17 yrs old, just a figure to fill in there. Just coincidently, 17 yrs old… is the age of that 3rd party, that happens to hurt a few friends i know.] Medical students… we all really have a screwed up love life.

Life is a difficult journey to begin with. Every path is filled with thorns. If you are not careful, you might step on it and injure yourself. Pain is inevitably, it’s just needed to be there for us to learn to be better. Each time you fall, you learn to stand up faster and stay firmer so that no one can push you down again.

Fairytales and Cinderella, they are liar. Don’t give hope to someone if you know you will hurt them very much in the end. It is very cruel if you suddenly take away that source of hope from their hands. Sometimes living in hopelessness is not a really bad thing either. At least, you will strive harder for that hope and once you catch it with your own hand; no one can take it away from you.

I am feeling a bit cranky now. One friend said, he understands bcos patient with cancer is unpredictable. It’s not my fault. It’s the cancer cells fault for secreting excessive not needed stress hormones. Urrrggghhh I’m desperately need to get rid of them so that I can become normal again. I swear, i don’t curse and talk vulgar words when I’m more normal than normal. *sigh, what have gotten into me? I can’t even control myself sometimes. Is like I’m living in someone’s body.

I am trying to move forward step by step. I just need some time.

Sometimes I feel tired with what I’m doing now to the point that I sometimes even lose faith in God. I’m not sure why I am here for. I used to be very confident, very determined with what I wanted to do. But once in a while, I feel confused because undeniable that I have a not so bright future. Fate of medical students studying in Russia, no one can tell us how. Being a successful specialist? A professor? What we saw in reality is just being a normal GP working with government hospital with a salary same like secondary school teacher. Sometimes I wonder why do I have to work so hard? 6 years of education leh, say short is not short. We wasted our youth, our time, our happiness, almost our everything. But in the end, is it worth it? No matter how hard we try, it’s worthless because we are in Russia. Even our government despises us.

Every winter, we walk out with fear. Fear of being killed by skinheads one day. I almost die in a fire in hostel on Deepavali night year 2005 but our stupid uni doesn’t care. Those guys that caused the fire, they are still there in Kursk. Life continues like normal for everyone, but no one consider what happened to the victims. We have stubborn, refuse to understand student situation kind of a group of vice-deans sitting happily in the air-cond room. Russians and their weird mentality… sometimes I think even dogs are better than them; at least dogs are more understanding and will always try to listen to what we wanna say. Our life in Russia is so harsh. I don’t feel like a student sometimes, I feel more like a fighter fighting for my life there. Those Russians they made us feel so depressed, so mad, so disappointed.

Everyone here does not understand why but everyone studying in kursk, have their own bitter story behind. The good students changed into some weirdos, fall sick or quit studying. The not so good students seem to be enjoying themselves a lot. Drinking and smoking recklessly without parental control. After all this is a place for you to get MD at the lowest price then make use of this MD to do something else.

Is there any better way for us to escape from this hell hole?

I went to Midvalley to meet up with 2 ex-primary school friends today. Just few hours there, less than 4 hours i think, I started to feel tired and drowsy. I guess I’m still not fit enough to go out to the crowd yet. I really wanted to go out so much, I wish my body can recover asap. Last time i can walk and walk non-stop. Unless the stores closed already or else nothing could stop me from shopping lolz.

In MV centre court, there’s this Kose booth doing promotion there. I think most people know about the “Miss Shikesei” contest. There is one salesgirl approach me with the brochure. She asked me to take part in the contest. Very easy, buy their product, they will take picture for you for free and then they will submit your photo for you. I was thinking, i wish i could join too. But too bad I can’t because I still couldn’t smile properly.

And you know, my right ear kinda lost its sensation. It feels numb and hard. Expert says you can arouse someone by rubbing or simply just touching the ear. If any guys thinking of something, pls change your mind now bcos it won’t work for me anymore. I wonder if my sensation will return? But it seems impossible, bcos Dr.Chandran also said that i might lose sensation of my right ear.

Before i forget, this is a little pressie for ShadowFox. Presenting you Missy Pinkie Garlic. Fresh and Raw! lol. This is the garlic Li Yi brought to the hospital during her visit.

Cute leh? anybody need a creative director? Hired my friend Liyi la.

And weee~, my earned rm7 from adverlets liao. Thank you so much for clicking on it. Soon will reach rm50 then i can sponsor a child. Should i take girl or boy first? But I think I would choose girl… errh no i like boy too… errhmm… life in China is really tough for girls… maybe i should help girl first. Hmmm…. if can, I wish i could sponsor a girl and a boy. Aza Aza fighting!~ Then i have to increase my earnings from blogging. Do continue clicking! Don’t stop! =) Thank you so much for helping me to help the poor children out there!